After 4 years… finally I decide..
Life must go on…. Am try to waiting miracle happened in my life,
miracle that can be solving my marriage life…
but it’s never come…..
Am tried ….
Am hopeless ….
And is over now…..
Have to decide ……. Goodbye my dear….
My apology for saying anything which is not acceptable …
Thanks for little gorgeous daughter, She will be my partner to enjoy this life now and forever….
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Lahir bulan November , katanya:.....
Has a lot of ideas (yup) Thinks forward (sometimes) Unique and brilliant (he.he.he ...blushing in my face)
Extraordinary ideas.(yup) Sharp thinking. Can become good doctors ( ngak mungkin... wong sudah jadi good accountant koq:))
Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets ( ngak deh kayaknya)
Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable (hmmmm very talkative kalee). Brave and generous.. ( wah... cok di confirm ama yang laen lah)
Patient... ( ngak lah..). Stubborn and hard-hearted ( gw banget!!!)
If there is a will, there is a way( along with my almighty). Determined.
Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked ( yang bener...pemarah )Loves to be alone ( no choice .... enjoy sajaaaaa)Thinks differently from others. S
harp-minded. Motivates oneself.
Does not appreciates praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough.
Deep love and emotions. Romantic. (bbbrrtttt ngak lah)
Uncertain in relationships. Hardworking ( yup ). High abilities.(yup)
Trustworthy (yup..yup). Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions.
Unpredictable (iya iya iya .... gw banget!!!)
Extraordinary ideas.(yup) Sharp thinking. Can become good doctors ( ngak mungkin... wong sudah jadi good accountant koq:))
Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets ( ngak deh kayaknya)
Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable (hmmmm very talkative kalee). Brave and generous.. ( wah... cok di confirm ama yang laen lah)
Patient... ( ngak lah..). Stubborn and hard-hearted ( gw banget!!!)
If there is a will, there is a way( along with my almighty). Determined.
Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked ( yang bener...pemarah )Loves to be alone ( no choice .... enjoy sajaaaaa)Thinks differently from others. S
harp-minded. Motivates oneself.
Does not appreciates praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough.
Deep love and emotions. Romantic. (bbbrrtttt ngak lah)
Uncertain in relationships. Hardworking ( yup ). High abilities.(yup)
Trustworthy (yup..yup). Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions.
Unpredictable (iya iya iya .... gw banget!!!)
Monday, July 16, 2007
Think of You [kayla]
My gorgeous :
Keep my heart awake
and my dreams alive….
Always turn the gray sky blue when winter calls….
And when the night falls heavy,
Always turn the gray sky blue when winter calls….
And when the night falls heavy,
you make the stars shine twice as bright,
lighting upmy world with hope….
All of that make me a luckiest Bunda in this Universe….
lighting upmy world with hope….
All of that make me a luckiest Bunda in this Universe….
Think of You [kayla
My gorgeous :
Keep my heart awakeand my dreams alive….
Always turnthe gray sky bluewhen winter calls….
And when the nightfalls heavy,you make the starsshine twice as bright,
lighting upmy world with hope….
All of that make me a luckiest Bunda in this Universe….
Keep my heart awakeand my dreams alive….
Always turnthe gray sky bluewhen winter calls….
And when the nightfalls heavy,you make the starsshine twice as bright,
lighting upmy world with hope….
All of that make me a luckiest Bunda in this Universe….
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
5th Commencement Exercises
my Dream...........makes all things possible
Hope..............makes all things work
Love ...............makes all things beautiful
Smile ................makes all above work possible
and all of that is for My Kayla Luna ...
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Farewell Party
Yeaaah... goodbye Play Group...welcome kindergarten.....
She’s really excited to attend farewell party..
With the china costume she’s look beautiful …..
They sing a Germany song….. I don’t know the title is…
Bahasa inggris ajah ribet apalagi german…he.he.he…
Am so proud....
Even on 4th term she’s not get the BEST CHARACTER in class but for me she's still the best .... (Term 1, 2 & 3 she always get BEST CHARACTER)……
With the china costume she’s look beautiful …..
They sing a Germany song….. I don’t know the title is…
Bahasa inggris ajah ribet apalagi german…he.he.he…
Am so proud....
Even on 4th term she’s not get the BEST CHARACTER in class but for me she's still the best .... (Term 1, 2 & 3 she always get BEST CHARACTER)……
Friday, June 15, 2007
Life
Life isn't about keeping score.
It's not about how many friends you have or how accepted you are.
Not about if you have plans this weekend or if you're alone.
Life isn't about who you're dating,
who you used to date,
how many people you've dated,
or if you haven't been with anyone at all.
It isn't about who you have kissed, it isn't about sex.
Life isn't about who your family is
or how much money they have
or what kind of car you drive,
or where you are sent to school.
It's not about how beautiful you are
or ugly you are,
or what clothes you wear,
what shoes you have on,
or what kind of music you listen to.
It's not about if your hair is blonde, red, black or brown,
or if your skin is too light or too dark.
It's not about what grades you get,
how smart you are,
how smart everybody else thinks you are,
or how smart standardized tests say you are.
Life isn't about what clubs you're in,
or how good you are at sport.
Life isn't about what representing your whole being on a piece of paper and seeing who will accept the written you.
LIFE JUST ISN'T
But, life is about who you love and who you hurt.
It's about who you make happy or unhappy purposely.
It's about keeping or betraying trust.
It's about friendship, used as a sanctity or a weapon.
Life is about what you say and mean,
maybe hurtful,
maybe heartening.
About starting rumour contributing to petty gossip.
It's about what judgements you pass and why,
and why your judgements are spread to.
Life is about who you've ignored with full control and intention.
It's about jealousy,
fear,
ignorance
and revenge.
It's about carrying inner hate and love, letting it grow, and spreading it.
But most of all,
it's about using your life to touch or poison otherpeople's hearts in such a way that could have never occurred alone.
Only you choose the way those hearts are affected,
and those choices are what life is all about.
It's not about how many friends you have or how accepted you are.
Not about if you have plans this weekend or if you're alone.
Life isn't about who you're dating,
who you used to date,
how many people you've dated,
or if you haven't been with anyone at all.
It isn't about who you have kissed, it isn't about sex.
Life isn't about who your family is
or how much money they have
or what kind of car you drive,
or where you are sent to school.
It's not about how beautiful you are
or ugly you are,
or what clothes you wear,
what shoes you have on,
or what kind of music you listen to.
It's not about if your hair is blonde, red, black or brown,
or if your skin is too light or too dark.
It's not about what grades you get,
how smart you are,
how smart everybody else thinks you are,
or how smart standardized tests say you are.
Life isn't about what clubs you're in,
or how good you are at sport.
Life isn't about what representing your whole being on a piece of paper and seeing who will accept the written you.
LIFE JUST ISN'T
But, life is about who you love and who you hurt.
It's about who you make happy or unhappy purposely.
It's about keeping or betraying trust.
It's about friendship, used as a sanctity or a weapon.
Life is about what you say and mean,
maybe hurtful,
maybe heartening.
About starting rumour contributing to petty gossip.
It's about what judgements you pass and why,
and why your judgements are spread to.
Life is about who you've ignored with full control and intention.
It's about jealousy,
fear,
ignorance
and revenge.
It's about carrying inner hate and love, letting it grow, and spreading it.
But most of all,
it's about using your life to touch or poison otherpeople's hearts in such a way that could have never occurred alone.
Only you choose the way those hearts are affected,
and those choices are what life is all about.
Monday, June 4, 2007
Be Thankfull
Sebenarnya, kita hanya punya 3 hari saja:
Yang pertama;Hari Kemarin.
Kita tak bisa mengubah apapun yang telah terjadi.
Kita tak bisa menarik perkataan yang telah terucapkan.
Kita tak mungkin lagi menghapus kesalahan;dan mengulangi kegembiraan yang Kita rasakan kemarin.Biarkan hari kemarin lewat; lepaskan saja...
Yang kedua:Hari Esok.
Hingga mentari esok hari terbit,Kita tak tahu apa yang akan terjadi.
Kita tak bisa melakukan apa-apa esok hari.
Kita tak mungkin sedih atau ceria di esok hari.Esok hari belum tiba; biarkan saja...
Yang tersisa kini hanyalah hari ini.
Pintu masa lalu telah tertutup;pintu masa depan pun belum tiba.
Pusatkan saja diri kita untuk hari ini.
Kita dapat mengerjakan lebih banyak hal hari ini bila Kita mampu memaafkan hari kemarin dan melepaskan ketakutan akan esok hari.
Hiduplah hari ini.
Karena, masa lalu dan masa depan hanyalah permainan pikiran yang rumit.
Hiduplah apa adanya.
Karena yang ada hanyalah hari ini; hari yang abadi.
The day will come when you will review your life and
Be thankful for every minute of it. Every hurt, every sorrow, every joy, every celebration, everymoment of your life will be a treasure to you......
Yang pertama;Hari Kemarin.
Kita tak bisa mengubah apapun yang telah terjadi.
Kita tak bisa menarik perkataan yang telah terucapkan.
Kita tak mungkin lagi menghapus kesalahan;dan mengulangi kegembiraan yang Kita rasakan kemarin.Biarkan hari kemarin lewat; lepaskan saja...
Yang kedua:Hari Esok.
Hingga mentari esok hari terbit,Kita tak tahu apa yang akan terjadi.
Kita tak bisa melakukan apa-apa esok hari.
Kita tak mungkin sedih atau ceria di esok hari.Esok hari belum tiba; biarkan saja...
Yang tersisa kini hanyalah hari ini.
Pintu masa lalu telah tertutup;pintu masa depan pun belum tiba.
Pusatkan saja diri kita untuk hari ini.
Kita dapat mengerjakan lebih banyak hal hari ini bila Kita mampu memaafkan hari kemarin dan melepaskan ketakutan akan esok hari.
Hiduplah hari ini.
Karena, masa lalu dan masa depan hanyalah permainan pikiran yang rumit.
Hiduplah apa adanya.
Karena yang ada hanyalah hari ini; hari yang abadi.
The day will come when you will review your life and
Be thankful for every minute of it. Every hurt, every sorrow, every joy, every celebration, everymoment of your life will be a treasure to you......
Monday, April 30, 2007
Things should never apologize for....
1. Never apologize for giving my best in a relationship that just didn't work out.
2. Never apologize for crying. Wear waterproof mascara and express yourself.
3. Never apologize for being frugal. Just because I save my money instead of blowing it on the latest fashion emergency doesn't mean me cheap.
4. Don't apologize for being a single mom. Kayla is a blessing.
5. Never apologize for treating myself to something special. Sometimes I need some appreciation.
6. Never apologize for setting high standards in a relationship. I know what I can tolerate and what simply gets on my nerves.
7. Never apologize for saying NO.
8. Never apologize for my taste in clothes. It's my style.
9.Never apologize for changing my mind.
10. Never apologize for exercising your right to choose. It's your body and your right.
11. I never apologize for being me!......
2. Never apologize for crying. Wear waterproof mascara and express yourself.
3. Never apologize for being frugal. Just because I save my money instead of blowing it on the latest fashion emergency doesn't mean me cheap.
4. Don't apologize for being a single mom. Kayla is a blessing.
5. Never apologize for treating myself to something special. Sometimes I need some appreciation.
6. Never apologize for setting high standards in a relationship. I know what I can tolerate and what simply gets on my nerves.
7. Never apologize for saying NO.
8. Never apologize for my taste in clothes. It's my style.
9.Never apologize for changing my mind.
10. Never apologize for exercising your right to choose. It's your body and your right.
11. I never apologize for being me!......
Apa kata mereka tentang.......
Ini copy an dari testi teman teman di friendster... sayang FS nya dah ngak active karena lupa password nya dan dulu sign in nya pake alamat imel jaman di IP djuhhhh sebal banget..mo created yg baru kayaknya dah basi hari gene masih FS2 an...he.he.he....
Kebenaran testi ini sih 50:50 kale yah...he.he.he ...padahal gw kan lebih lebih..hmmmmmm JELEK dari itu...hue.he.he.....
ini dia niki aka yang ku mo aka neng aka bunda kayla........:
o Tina
o Yaaanngg Kuuuu Mooooo ... duuuhhh ... Niki itu orgnya cueeekkkk banget! Enak diajak becanda, orangnya baik ... tapi kalo dah ngambek ... duh males deh ... tapi dia salah satu temen gue yg asik ... gue masih inget bgt saat hrs nyupir roti tawarnya tegah malem buta sendirian ampe keringetan, saking takut dia nyupir dalam keadaan tidak sadar ... huahaha ... I never forget that TRAGIC day! Wove you Mama Kaywa ...
o Dayat
o Niks, ini adalah room mate gue he he he... Niki ini baek, tapi kalo udah ngomel bisa kaya kesamber gledek tuch ruangan accounting :-) tapi ga pa pa u r de best lah niks.. especially in analyzing financial report..
o Piw
o Yang kumo temen gila gw, I really miss our crazy times! We both scorpio jd klop; we do things off the limit: enaknya bisa pol2an.. ngga enaknya: ngga ada yg ngerem hehe.. klo urusan cowo UNCENSORED, urusan mabu2an NO LIMIT hehe.. yg bt skrg, agak bolot, soalnya gw masih suka gila2an, yang kumo prefer drmh (soalnya sdh ada kayla) trus gw cerita cowo, deise cerita suami.. lha, itu artinya masih klop ngga yah?! hihi
o danieL
o Neng adalah salah satu teman terbaik yang aku dapatkan.....walaupun agak galak tapi dia baek banget sama temannya ...sangat helpfull kepada sesama trus pinter banget...and cantek juga seh...he..he..he..he...ehm waktu kita kuliah dulu dia biasanya jadi leader klompok kita...termasuk salah satu mama genk...di persekutuan doa kita...Niki pokoke teman yang bisa diajak dalam senang maupun dalam syusah....pokoke niki is the best dah...
o Maya
o Bundanya kayla ini adalah salah satu temen curhat gw, orgnya sensitif bgt, wajah preman, hati rinto, kira2 bgt lah gambarannya. Anaknya asik buat diajak ngobrol, makan (salah satu persamaan kita) apalagi buat gila2an, tp skrg sdh gak bisa lagi....:( ada Davin dan Kayla:)
o fannieeeeeeeeee
o IBu dengan satu anak ini orangnya sangat-2 CheerFUL, temen ngegossip sejati, hobby makan (sma kaya Fannie), ga peLit, suka menolong, kaLo Lagi makan siang sama Mba Ci2, Mba Christine, Ibu Harnie yang ada bukannya makan malah Cape ketawa trus perutnya keram deh udah gitu yang jadi Objek berCanda'nya saLah saTu priA Terganteng di muka bumi ini (yang ini hanya kita yang tau ya Mba) hehhehehe. trus mba niki ini kadang-2 PLinPLan, dari kantor bilangnya mo makan di Tamani eh diProvokatorin kita mau aja makan di Emperan sebelah Wendy's huahauaha (inget Mba susu Kayla mahaL). I wish ouR Friendship will be Last 4eVa.
o Nita
o Kayla's mom ini adalah orang yang paling baik.., dulu waktu sekantor, dia nggak pernah keberatan untuk ditebengin, partner erobik, abis itu makan mendoan..., temenan ama dia kaya punya kakak cewek.., cuman kalo bete nya lagi kumat... wuih..seyem..., pokoknya temenan ama ibu NQ itu menyenangkan sekali deh....Keep in touch ya.
Kebenaran testi ini sih 50:50 kale yah...he.he.he ...padahal gw kan lebih lebih..hmmmmmm JELEK dari itu...hue.he.he.....
ini dia niki aka yang ku mo aka neng aka bunda kayla........:
o Tina
o Yaaanngg Kuuuu Mooooo ... duuuhhh ... Niki itu orgnya cueeekkkk banget! Enak diajak becanda, orangnya baik ... tapi kalo dah ngambek ... duh males deh ... tapi dia salah satu temen gue yg asik ... gue masih inget bgt saat hrs nyupir roti tawarnya tegah malem buta sendirian ampe keringetan, saking takut dia nyupir dalam keadaan tidak sadar ... huahaha ... I never forget that TRAGIC day! Wove you Mama Kaywa ...
o Dayat
o Niks, ini adalah room mate gue he he he... Niki ini baek, tapi kalo udah ngomel bisa kaya kesamber gledek tuch ruangan accounting :-) tapi ga pa pa u r de best lah niks.. especially in analyzing financial report..
o Piw
o Yang kumo temen gila gw, I really miss our crazy times! We both scorpio jd klop; we do things off the limit: enaknya bisa pol2an.. ngga enaknya: ngga ada yg ngerem hehe.. klo urusan cowo UNCENSORED, urusan mabu2an NO LIMIT hehe.. yg bt skrg, agak bolot, soalnya gw masih suka gila2an, yang kumo prefer drmh (soalnya sdh ada kayla) trus gw cerita cowo, deise cerita suami.. lha, itu artinya masih klop ngga yah?! hihi
o danieL
o Neng adalah salah satu teman terbaik yang aku dapatkan.....walaupun agak galak tapi dia baek banget sama temannya ...sangat helpfull kepada sesama trus pinter banget...and cantek juga seh...he..he..he..he...ehm waktu kita kuliah dulu dia biasanya jadi leader klompok kita...termasuk salah satu mama genk...di persekutuan doa kita...Niki pokoke teman yang bisa diajak dalam senang maupun dalam syusah....pokoke niki is the best dah...
o Maya
o Bundanya kayla ini adalah salah satu temen curhat gw, orgnya sensitif bgt, wajah preman, hati rinto, kira2 bgt lah gambarannya. Anaknya asik buat diajak ngobrol, makan (salah satu persamaan kita) apalagi buat gila2an, tp skrg sdh gak bisa lagi....:( ada Davin dan Kayla:)
o fannieeeeeeeeee
o IBu dengan satu anak ini orangnya sangat-2 CheerFUL, temen ngegossip sejati, hobby makan (sma kaya Fannie), ga peLit, suka menolong, kaLo Lagi makan siang sama Mba Ci2, Mba Christine, Ibu Harnie yang ada bukannya makan malah Cape ketawa trus perutnya keram deh udah gitu yang jadi Objek berCanda'nya saLah saTu priA Terganteng di muka bumi ini (yang ini hanya kita yang tau ya Mba) hehhehehe. trus mba niki ini kadang-2 PLinPLan, dari kantor bilangnya mo makan di Tamani eh diProvokatorin kita mau aja makan di Emperan sebelah Wendy's huahauaha (inget Mba susu Kayla mahaL). I wish ouR Friendship will be Last 4eVa.
o Nita
o Kayla's mom ini adalah orang yang paling baik.., dulu waktu sekantor, dia nggak pernah keberatan untuk ditebengin, partner erobik, abis itu makan mendoan..., temenan ama dia kaya punya kakak cewek.., cuman kalo bete nya lagi kumat... wuih..seyem..., pokoknya temenan ama ibu NQ itu menyenangkan sekali deh....Keep in touch ya.
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Effort is a Joy
Life is filled with difficult work isnt it?.
Have you ever considered what a blessing that truly is?
The opportunity for effort never ends. Complete one task, and there are even more then before, ready to be undertaken.after annual financial report , there's annual taxes report ...Financial statement analysis per two months to Directors after that financial statement for investor , review monthly FS report,weekly report cash plan, daily task......uuuuuhhhhhh Sometimes I just want to scream ......Capeee deh..
But if I see effort as a burden, then I might well become dismayed that there is no end to it.
Yet effort is not a burden at all.
Just read one of my friend's email that state : EFFORT is a JOY....my eyes open..and that Am realize yeah effort is a joy, repeat.. effort is a JOY .
I got something valuable from that article....
Effort is a grand opportunity to express my self and to express the magnificence of living, in a way that is solid and tangible.
The burden of effort is only in my imagination, only in my resistance to it. Let go of that imagined burden, and experience each effort as the truly liberating thing it is.
Think of how life would be if every moment brought more and more richness and fulfillment. Know effort as the joy that it is, and that's exactly how's my life will be.......
Have you ever considered what a blessing that truly is?
The opportunity for effort never ends. Complete one task, and there are even more then before, ready to be undertaken.after annual financial report , there's annual taxes report ...Financial statement analysis per two months to Directors after that financial statement for investor , review monthly FS report,weekly report cash plan, daily task......uuuuuhhhhhh Sometimes I just want to scream ......Capeee deh..
But if I see effort as a burden, then I might well become dismayed that there is no end to it.
Yet effort is not a burden at all.
Just read one of my friend's email that state : EFFORT is a JOY....my eyes open..and that Am realize yeah effort is a joy, repeat.. effort is a JOY .
I got something valuable from that article....
Effort is a grand opportunity to express my self and to express the magnificence of living, in a way that is solid and tangible.
The burden of effort is only in my imagination, only in my resistance to it. Let go of that imagined burden, and experience each effort as the truly liberating thing it is.
Think of how life would be if every moment brought more and more richness and fulfillment. Know effort as the joy that it is, and that's exactly how's my life will be.......
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Keep on Choosing
One of my fave quote:
Success is not a secret. It is a choice, a choice that is made over and over again.......
Am agree with that quote..
Setiap hari kita di hadapkan dengan pilihan....apa yang kita tuai nantinya adalah hasil dari pilihan kita...
Kayla saat ini aku sudah coba ajarkan untuk tau artinya memilih......
Last week after go to sunday school we go to mall , am pretty sure she have she's own plan ...
along the way to mall she said" bunda aku mau beli baju nanti yah" , she have a fave stall that sale a lots of tshirt yg gambarnya character2 dari kartun kesukaan nya.
and finally we arrive at Mall " ayo bunda ke atas ,aku mau beli baju'
hmmmmmmmmmm aku mau yang belle dan ariel bunda.... No kayla ..you have to choose one .The most you wanted .... ngak boleh dua dua nya. Bunda punya uang nya cuma buat satu baju saja.....
She choose the ariel ...and she say.. Iya bunda aku mau yang ariel..tapi kalo bunda ada duit lagi minggu depan aku mau yang belle yah...
Thats the way , am teach my daughter.... Hidup penuh dengan pilihan..dan tidak bisa kita dapatkan semua pilihan tersebut dalam satu pilihan....
its a choice, a choice that is made over and over again...
Bekasi, April 21 2007
Success is not a secret. It is a choice, a choice that is made over and over again.......
Am agree with that quote..
Setiap hari kita di hadapkan dengan pilihan....apa yang kita tuai nantinya adalah hasil dari pilihan kita...
Kayla saat ini aku sudah coba ajarkan untuk tau artinya memilih......
Last week after go to sunday school we go to mall , am pretty sure she have she's own plan ...
along the way to mall she said" bunda aku mau beli baju nanti yah" , she have a fave stall that sale a lots of tshirt yg gambarnya character2 dari kartun kesukaan nya.
and finally we arrive at Mall " ayo bunda ke atas ,aku mau beli baju'
hmmmmmmmmmm aku mau yang belle dan ariel bunda.... No kayla ..you have to choose one .The most you wanted .... ngak boleh dua dua nya. Bunda punya uang nya cuma buat satu baju saja.....
She choose the ariel ...and she say.. Iya bunda aku mau yang ariel..tapi kalo bunda ada duit lagi minggu depan aku mau yang belle yah...
Thats the way , am teach my daughter.... Hidup penuh dengan pilihan..dan tidak bisa kita dapatkan semua pilihan tersebut dalam satu pilihan....
its a choice, a choice that is made over and over again...
Bekasi, April 21 2007
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